I wish... I wish...

I edited this  post on 11th September, but couldn't bring myself to publish it until today...

Wednesday 7th September - The worst has happened. Flicka died during the night, after staying at the vet for 3 days and  treated with paralysis tick  anti venom. Her little heart couldn't cope with that nasty virulent poison. She died peacefully without any pain. We picked her up from the vet and laid her lifeless little body in our magic forest, where she used to love exploring, sniffing and playing with lizards and hunting for rats and birds.

I'm going to miss her. We're going to miss her. I wish the time  could go backward instead than forward. I know it's impossible . We, humans are so selfish. We only think about ourselves, OUR pain…  Dogs are always so  loyal and stick by you and try to comfort you no matter what.

She even tried to do just that when we took her to the vet. I had her on my lap supporting her little head and she was looking at me with her big round eyes like she was saying. "Don't worry mummy I know you're sad but you can't do a thing about this. Everything will be right, you'll see..." She was trying to comfort me! Even through her pain.

At least the weather has improved and the sun is shining. She's had a wonderful time in the last 3 months. Watching over her property, like us, enjoying looking at the view, lying in the grass in the sun. Chasing the birds and going rat hunting with Sven. Barking at the cows next door. Then digging a hole for herself right at the entrance of the veranda and curling up in a ball to keep warm, refusing to come inside in the warmth. She loved it up here. We should have taken her up earlier so she could have enjoyed it for longer.

I keep waking up every night and try to find her on our bed to scratch her belly like I used to…  but then remember that she won't be there any longer.

Heartache  is something hard to cope with. I wish I had taken more photos of her when she was fit and healthy. I wish... I wish!

 But the past is the past. We can't wind the clock back. We have to look ahead at the future.

Every day the sun will rise, the birds will sing, the seasons will follow,  life will go on. Time will heal but we will never forget her. Her funny little under bite... She was so adorable and loving!

R.I.P. Flicka!

Flicka as we want to remember her ♥

                                                              She could run!................